I didn’t sleep well last night. I lay awake thinking about my ministry and if I am following the path that God would have me take. I often get discouraged at how little seems to happen in the life of the church. Failures come in a variety of forms. As I laid awake I found myself wrestling with how much I really trust God for my life. I am really a person who likes to control the situations and yet many are way beyond my control. Hence the struggle. I know I am limited but I don’t like admitting it. I did finally get to sleep last night after I realized that God was trying to grow me up more. He wants all of me to completely trust in Him. Tonight I hope to get more sleep and to rest in God’s care completely. In my head I know it is the only way to real rest.